2015-01/24 –
Changes were coming. They were difficult ones. Mother Nature had rained down on me with all her fury and pushed some major decision-making. The snow kept coming. It was overwhelming. I lived at the sea where the weather was more temperate and the snowfall was minimal. This particular month was the worst my area had seen in decades.
I drive an old car and could not get down to the nursing home. It was just not safe. I had a friend who lived closer to where the nursing home was, though, who had offered me a room. We had a still budding relationship and I don’t think either of us were ready to move on to the living together stage, but there were not many choices.
“Mother Nature was not smiling down on me. She was raging.”
I was going to have to say good bye to my idyllic life by the sea. I was going to have to say good bye to waking up to the seagulls crooning at the harbor right outside my windows. I was going to have to say good bye to weekly dinners with my son who had just moved out two months before that. I was going to have to say good bye to the photo studio I had worked so hard to build. I was going to have to say good bye to two businesses there and I was going to have to say good bye to so many friends I loved dearly.
It was simply too hard to get to the nursing home, though. My mother deserved to have a loved one with her on a consistent basis. I was the only one to do it so I needed to swallow my pain, ignore my breaking heart and move on to a life in the city. The decision was not one that came easily. It came with many tears and many hours of soul-searching.